Lost...

sometimes, i have no idea what to do anymore
it seems that i have lost the will
i have no inspiration anymore
no motivation, the spark sucked out of me
i felt like giving up at a lot of times
although there are times where i will be on fire again, motivated again
but my body does not respond to it, even if my hearts tells me to
i just.....dont know what to do anymore

Decisions, decisons....

life is just full of decisions
every day you will surely have to decided something, even if its a small thing
like: "which shirt should i wear today?" or "should i cut my toenails first or my fingernails first?"
you get the idea right?
once in a while, soemthing big comes into your life
it could be or will be a life changing decision once it is decided
will you make the right decision? you can never know until you decided
by then, once in a while that question "what if..." pops out
life is just full of "what if.."
but do we know it will turn up the way we wanted if we could change our decisions
looks like we just have to sit back and go along for the ride


and that's what you called a decision that went horribly wrong

gosh...

whee!! finally, the holidays
i really need this, SAM was a real energy sapping course
but sadly, this wont be really a break
got 4 projects to finish up
not to forget i have to do some catching up with physics and spec maths
did really badly in both, probably due to lack of concentration into it during class
oh well, time to do some work i guess...

what to say

and so, got my results back, quite good, prefer if all As but who doesnt
oh well, received the congrats, well done and bla bla bla from family and relatives
nothing else to comment bout it, oh well lol
whats been happening the past week:
1) Arsenal WON!! WHEEEE!!
2) F1 finally started again! WHEE!!!
3) Ferrari won! WHEEE!
4) Chong Wei won! WHEEEE!
5) I am getting a ONE WEEK HOLIDAY!!!! WHOOPEEE!! (yea, its gets a whoopee, xD)

i am just syok sendiri here, am I ?

Dreams

hmm, what exactly is a dream?
some say is what you want to achieve in the future
while some say is what you have in mind
especially when you are sleeping, your dreams shows what you want

for me? i don't know
i dont know what it means anymore
when i sleep, all i want is just a peaceful long sleep
i always hated it when waking up without remembering dreaming but still feeling exhausted
then i remembered being a villain using all sorts of heavy artillery killing police officers. a dream is supposed to show what you want....I DONT WANT THAT!! except while playing games of course xD

haiz, nowadays i dont look forward to a long sleep as before cause i dont know what will happen

all i want is nice long, peaceful, relaxing sleep. is that too much to ask?



like this fellow right here

*gasp

haiz...exams are coming!!
wasn't expecting this when i signed up for sam, but oh well
last time, i only have to worry about the term examinations
now, i have to worry about it every few weeks...*gasp
oh well, study study study, which of course, i wont do...

updated...finally

oh wow, its been months since i last logged in here, guess i got lazy but who cares
college started, obviously, still adapting to the life i guess
kinda tiring since it ends late
doesnt help with me getting up at 5.50 in the morning(THIS IS WORST THAN SCHOOL!!)

class is kinda ok, just getting akward seing some of the guys hitting on our english teacher (she's 24 btw)

and now, i am starting to dislike my physics teacher (not pn saik hate level....yet)
she's a real sien ballz and making lessons more complicated than it is..haiz

maths and spec maths lecturer are kinda ok, econs...kinda boring
and dont get me started on the lan subject
freakin boooring..
hated the session

and that is all for now, who knows when i will update again